my worst post(this has got to be)

if i had a dime(shilling would be better i guess)for every time i felt that i would never make it i definetly would be very rich.But what makes a truly great man is his conduct in the face of adversity and obstacles and by now im guessing that you are guessing that i am a great man(nuh! not man boy is more like it).And just for the record i really am not feeling this vibe i am not left brained remember.It doesnt hurt to express an opinion but you really must ensure that what you say is relevant.For starters this is a personal blog which means that iam at liberty to write whatever it is i feel like writing which also means that you are at liberty not to read whatever i write if for whatever reason it offends you.Secondly and this is fully subjective by the way if you find this boring then it only puts you in the ordinary mortals bracket and i dont write for those who consider themselves ordinary so really you see you never really were meant to be here.Went off on a tangent just there i know but you really must put some people in their place.If like me you definetly have shifting esteem you definetly are trying to cure it and such people really do get to you.See you later when i am in a much better mood.

In my element(sorry)

Silly advice about mourning stages and how you should really go through it to get over it-that was my weekend.Coupled with the fact that i had gotten a life saver some 2 or 3 days earlier pretty much sums it up as bittersweet.All the emotional breakdown bs also came to nought thanks to a combination of many factors the least not being a positive thinking attitude and the most definetly not the absence of a downright official and blatant snub.And then come issues of other people,those who only see as far as reality allows,who see fantasy as the realm of the crazy,who know only one way of doing things,for who risk and ingenuity are just words not a way of life,who prefer the tried and tested and despise(or is it fear) everything else.These are some of the people who surround us(by us let the reader get the exact intended meaning).Yes it is said that those who we associate with make us and i could not agree more.I decided not to share my dreams any more the result being an intense desire to succeed.Twofold benefit i guess and it better come to pass or the consequences will be more than dire.I know the soft is kinda strange but i view it as getting more into my element,growing so to speak.A good day to you all and if you can't do anything else just say a prayer,it helps in more ways than you would ever imagine.

other issues and wembley

I should write about tonight and indeed i will at some point(if im not already)but its such an obvious topic and obvious is always boring.I would rather make up my own stuff like the fact that someone pointed out my lack of finesse(whether that is the right spelling and the meaning put out thereof i cannot tell).It would appear not to make sense and indeed it is meant not to for reasons which are not entirely clear even to myself much less to so many of my secret readers.Yes they do exist if the curious silence is anything to go by and some even curiouser sentiments i get from those who know this secret identity of mine to the effect that i am an inspiration to those younger rebellious members of society who by chance happen to read my stuff.And especially some vintage stuff(2009)which i thought would amount to nothing and if it did,to nothing much or much worse to be grouped among those classic examples of how not to write.Back to reality tonight man utd redeems itself and take it from me that we will though youn would be ill adviced to take my word.Just take them as the wishes of an overambitious fan but which will come true nonetheless.Lastly i cannot believe that i have not watched pirates 4 yet smthng is definetly wrong.

Of perfect endings

That i've been mia the past couple of days is due to my blogger or is it just blogger,acting up.Smthn about unavailability of the site and also my internet access.I can do nothing about the former but i'm working on the latter.Anyway i discovered(more like reaffirmed for i sort of knew it)that smthn is wrong either with me or with the rest of the world.What I'm looking for isnt what she was looking for(talk of mixed signals what you see isnt what you get-get it).Was coz most likely she already has found it.Most likely it was a case of wanting to eat your cake your cake and to have it but i just wouldnt play ball(i really have to work on the signals im sending out).Enough of this but on to more of the same issues-the pupil test did prove true so i did pass(more on this 'project' in future posts).Finally we have won the cup and i'm here watchin it how sweet.

Friday the 13th

Yeah of course i heard to write about this even though there really is nothing to write about.Happier news i finally managed to get a new mentor or my first mentor depending on how you look at it.Trollope who is a long dead author btw is a genius(i guess i call many people that but now i really mean it).The guy can write and make you feel it.The simplicity is simply amazing,humour,his characters and all else just leave me wondering when or better still if i shall ever match his skill.Being a late bloomer of sorts i dont really blame myself on discovering this guy some 6 or so years late i only hope that im not too late.This dream as i now discover requires patience and hardwork(obviously!)and as yours truly is not exactly gifted in both the question still remains how success shall be achieved.shall and not if mark you haters.As you live out this umpteenth friday the 13th may all your thoughts come to fruition.To those with superstitous tendencies i will try not to speak sense into you.I myself do not have enough sense for two is so egocentric and is lastly all about fun and carefree.Still love me though for i do you no matter what and that's a promise.